Hey guys today were talking about dating but more specifically a guy. Growing up I went to a really small high school so I never tried dating anyone because I just didn’t like most of the guys in my school. When I finally turned 18 I turned to tinder and if any of y’all have been on there you know how it goes. I’m one of those people with my snapchat in my bio because if you want to talk to me that badly you’ll add me. Well this story starts way back in October of 2018, I know. This guy had added me on snap and to be honest this wasn’t the first time. Many times they’re just there to hookup and want nothing else but I’m just not one of those people. You may be reading this and asking why I’m even on tinder then and trust me I’ve asked myself multiple times. Anyway, I started talking to this guy and we actually hit it off.
We talked for about two weeks before we decided to go on a date. He came to me and we went to a local restaurant and it went really well. We even went on a little walk after and it was a good time. About a week later I went to his house and he cooked dinner and we watched a show and again really hit it off. Then November came around. One important detail I didn’t mention was that he is in the navy and November was deployment month. He had just been sent off for 7 months and we had no contact.
During this month I realized that I actually really liked this boy and didn’t think I was going to care so much. But I did. And I really didn’t know what i was suppose to do about it. Those months were painful and when I was almost 100% he had returned. When we started talking again he was very distant and I had no idea why. We talked everyday some feeling like the days before he left and some feeling like I had ever talked to him. My feelings became confused. Here was this boy I liked so much but someone I could barely stand to deal with.
Months past and we finally had decided to hangout again this time at my house. My only problem is I had never told my mom about him. I didn’t want to drag her in to something I personally was still so confused about. So I planned for a day she would be at work and he came over. I think it was a vital part in figuring out what ever this was. We talked and caught up and cuddled. Everything felt in place and at peace.
Its been 8 and a half moths since he has been home and I’m still not sure what is going to come out of this. This last week has been one of the best its been in a while. We hung out again and conversation is just so easy with him now. I’m finally considering telling my mom but I want to make sure if I should. I can tell he has good intentions and I think I can trust him but I just need a clear sign that this is what we both want.
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